Hey, there!
My name is Jenna Atkinson and I am a 24 year old self- proclaimed happiness seeker! I currently live in the Lehigh Valley, Pennsylvania with my amazing mama and three hyperactive dogs Murray, Louie, and Eloise.
I graduated from Rider University in 2018 with my Bachelor of Fine Arts degree in musical theatre. Yep that’s right, I was a musical theatre major!
I will never forget the first time I stepped on stage when I was just 4 years old. I remember crying for my Mom because I didn’t want to go on stage without her, but amidst the tears I fell in love with the stage lights and continued to follow this passion of mine.
Growing up I never really struggled with anxiety or confidence, but college was a turning point for me. I had always been great at handling my feelings of overwhelm as even from a young age I was always involved in a lot, but I specifically remember my junior year of college when I experienced a burnout like never before.
I remember this overwhelming feeling of sadness. I would talk on the phone to my Mom and start crying for no reason. I would go to bed and wake up feeling anxious. I started crying enough that it felt more like a panic attack where I would be gasping for air. One early morning ballet class I specifically remember staring in the mirror with tears strolling down my face (hiding it of course so no one could see) because I didn’t recognize myself. I was confused, and scared about what was next after college (even though I still had plenty of time to figure it out) and I just felt lost.
As someone who is ferociously independent I clung to my books and google search bar for all the answers. This led me to open my first self-help book, The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin, which kick started my passion for personal development. At a time when I needed it most, this book became my everything. It inspired me to take control of my thoughts and it led me to read more books like You are a Badass, The Universe Has Your Back, Big Magic, and so many more!
It became my healthy obsession and escape, but more than anything it lit a fire in my soul for a topic I have become insanely passionate about!
My Why
Beyond anything else, my biggest inspiration will forever be my brother. He is the reason I believe this passion of mine burns so greatly. As I pulled myself out of a difficult place, I couldn’t help but think of him. I can’t even begin to imagine what it must be like for someone who suffers with a diagnosed mental illness, having to battle with those inner voices and pull yourself out of a darkness that cannot be explained.
Trevor was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 15. As a 12 year old watching my big brother suffer was confusing , and I quickly learned his life would never be the same. Watching him change in front of me, having no control of his thoughts, scared that I would hurt him even though he trusted me so much, was heart breaking. On March 27, 2019 he took his life. Every part of my being wants to crawl under a blanket and disappear, but I just can’t do that. Not for me and not for him.
My brother was much more than his illness. He was kind, intelligent and had a great sense of humor. I hope to honor all he has taught me through using my words as a vessel to serve and empower others to live more fully and choose happiness even when it seems impossible.
I strongly believe every challenge I have gone through and continue to face shapes me into the person I am today. While nothing has come easy, I am proud and determined to stand as a beacon of hope.
What I Learned
When I could not help I could smile, be a light, show positivity, and listen. My heart ultimately knows this is what I am meant to do for others, because let’s face it… the world is a scary place and we don’t have much control over what happens.
However, we can control our own happiness, how we treat others, and how we show up for ourselves.
This is why Smile with Jenna was born! As a way to show up for myself, to guide others, learn from each other, and create a safe environment where we can learn to be the best version of ourselves.
Thank you for allowing me to be vulnerable and share my story. I’m looking forward to growing with you and sharing some smiles along the way.
Let’s Stay Connected!
